so i guess with Facebook i kindof feel like i never have anything to write on my blog cause its all on Fb now but just so something is here i thought i would post the pictures of my 13 days of valentines, then matt took me to dinner on Valentines day...
It was a fun project, it certainly kept me busy for half of february!!!!!
A quick note about my birthday (March 10th), after presents on my birthday including flowers balloons a hair cut games a kindle a bag of 30 gifts,earrings and dinner and dessert with friends. Matt took me away for a night - thanks largely to the fact that the Dacus Family put up with my darling crazy energetic daughter over night! The whole thing made me feel really special which is certainly not how i felt when i woke in the morning to me being 30. I think certain ages really make you sit down and think about what you have done to get to this milestone (millstone) or what you haven't done. What Ifs are hard to deal with. I looked at where i thought i would be, what i wanted for myself and i cried. I cried because I have not become the person i was hoping to be, I have not achieved the things i expected of myself. I know this doesnt mean i havent achieved other things or blah blah blah but that is just how turning 30 made me feel.
Luckily once your mind is sufficiently occupied by being totally spoilt you tend not to think of 'how much of a failure I am' and just have fun. waking up the day after my birthday, I didnt feel the need to 'take stock' this doesnt mean that i like being 30 because 30 is still ancient, But really i dont have a choice but to be 30.
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Feb looks like it was a good month for you! I love getting the updates!
I love updates no matter how old or new they are! Glad February was great for you!
You are too much like me. We are perfectionists/idealists, and since we get overwhelmed thinking of how to accomplish these high hopes, we kind of go into avoidance mode! I think having good clean fun is the BEST distraction. Truthfully, we don't realize how far we have come because it's so far from what we imagined. I have to remind myself that I can't see the person HF wants me to be. Compassion and love (charity) is really the best trait and you have developed AMAZINGLY in that area! Love you!
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